City Beach

Have you ever been inspired by a song, in my case, it turned out to be an entire album, Shoot this by Motor Ace, and especially their song Ride the wave.

For some reason I feel that I am no longer creative. But at least I used to be, in my mind. But I can't prove it any more. I guess when I get angry (blames sisters) I throw things away. I can't seem to every find my black and white negative of an old man I drew. Some things from year nine survived. I guess they reflected what I felt at the time. That would have been a nice reason why I didn't throw them away, but honestly it's because they wouldn't had fit into the garbage bin.

For my project, I had a theme. The curriculum required us to do the city, bush and the beach, but I never really thought they were that different. One day, if I can scan it for you, I'll show you my collage. My theme was called "City Beach". For my painting I never finished, it was mainly inspired by a few songs by Moby where thetwo words merged into one for me. I escaped into a night world of lights and natural beauty, swimming across red coral with illuminated life. The neon purplish blue jelly fish swimming in the foreground seemed to be a glowing bus and the coral beneath and beyond was filled with life, just like suburbia and just like a city. Above on the beach, you can see the homes built right up to the shore and even on the rickety jetty. They were simple and suburban beach homes. Looked like the ones which would be quite expensive to buy, but left the owners bankrupt from renovating them to extreme surfing material. Further into the horison suburbia would seem to shrink into glowing specks, deep red like the coral but just as alive. And the reflection of the unseen sun reflecting in the skies above gave it a mystical feel. If it had a message, I'm sure people enjoy giving things meaning but I assure you this is an unhealthy environment for any flora or fauna, but just a concoction of the imagination.

My collage was like any other prophesy of the future. I think I recently watched the movie AI, with the little kid actor Hayley and an android searching for his mother or home, I don't recall too well. In that movie, the future of earth existed as ice, where Antarctica and the Arctic met hand in hand for every perimeter. The surface a dry white frost with the tallest buildings protruding from the blanket and deep within the ice was frigid water wearing but preserving artifacts of the human race, their lamp posts, cars, apartments, the way they lived. I guess I stole the idea closely but I had tall buildings and the sea intruding onto it's territory to the extent that they seemed to share the space in harmony. Instead of humans changing it once more, they were divers inspecting, analysing and learning off their friendship.

Well that's something you can make up from it. I just thought it looked nice. I enjoy looking at and taking pictures if I ever had the chance of industrial material, factories and their worlds. The rust, and rectangles and the contrast between vibrant and subtle colours. People value nature and that awful word "the wild" over this because they fear you lose a human touch but that's not true. Beauty isn't always so blatant, it is more valuable with it exists in an instant as everything is beautiful. If it doesn't seem to be, you may only be looking at it in the wrong perspective. If it were a flower or if it be a dead cockroach, everything had a role in this world, everything deserves respect and honor. Don't allow petty feelings such as fear and prejudice cloud your mind, have a clear judgment.

Web comic / drawings

As you all already know, I've re-started the group drawings. For the newer members of our group, I tried to draw everybody in our group in year seven. This was the time when we only had girls in our group, and we sat outside the TAS block.

Reasons I ended the project were that I felt there was too much pressure, as in, I may exaggerate certain aspects on people and I may upset them. Often in pictures of groups, it's customary to give different people roles. I fear my act of labelling people may change who they really are. Back then I didn't really know people too well anyway so all I knew about them was what they presented themselves to be to an acquaintance.

This time, as an on-looker representing my views on what the group is, I believe I have a right to express my opinions. Although this will be accessible to the general public, I give privilege to the people involved to have exclusive access to more. I understand people may distaste the way they have been drawn or conveyed, but I will allow their input in the designing process as much as I can.

I understand there is demand for this project to be completed, but if too many difficulties arise I will boycott the project. Please don't pester me too much after this stage, I will most likely be grumbling and moping.

Anyways, once the scanner gets working, I'll begin uploading the comics. But editing, retouching and character designs need to be first and Emozlie's my number one editor.

Check announcements for updates.

Time to disarm

Havent had a blog in years, last time it was in MSN spaces and that took too much internet to actually load. I've finally finished my site as well and I have a few projects coming up but I doubt I will be able to work on them this year since it's the final year of High School (HSC)

This term is my second hardest challenge yet and I don't plan to miss it!